Okey guys so this is the truth about I did between Saturday and Monday (now):
I came home yesterday, on the eleven-hour flight to Frankfurt I cried and I couldn’t stop. Well when I fell asleep and slept for six hours I didn’t cry but then I woke up and reminded myself that I hugged Jhon and he cried like I’ve never seen a grown man cry. So I started to cry more.
Now I am just confused about my situation. I know that they have a life there and I have a life here. But I want to get to know them. Like Jhon said and wrote to me, I want that moment in life there we just can sit and watch tv and laugh together.
That’s why I’m confused about my whole situation. What does it mean when you’re adopted? Does it mean that you have to forget where you come from and forget your biological family? If it is in that case I don’t want to be adopted anymore.
I have the most beautiful family here and I love them so much!
I just… Want to be with my family in Colombia for a while, so I then will know more about them and know that they will not forget me. So I then can travel between the two families and make it so natural as it will be.
The problem why I am so sad is because I have to stay in Sweden in like six month because I can’t just quit school. But it’s hard because I will never forget when my mom cried and when Jhon cried.
I must stay positive because I must focus on school until I’m graduating.