“Cry cry cry, it is good to cry, but it hurts in my heart. I love them but I miss home, I was right, it hurts so freaking much to say goodbye. Even if I now can admit that I belong to Sweden, it hurts. Like the times before I now want to go home and cry so mom can take care of me. I don’t want this anymore. I can’t handle this. “
The reason why I chose to not go to Colombia this year isn’t because of that, it is because I need to work and study because I can’t work only three weeks as I did before.
That feeling I get when I’m about to leave Colombia, I hate it and that’s why I’m so angry about feeling like I don’t know where I wanna be the most. That’s why I hate adoption.