All my best ideas come from when I let myself think without any distractions. Today a Sunday I cleaned my apartment so I could have any kind of distraction from myself but I can’t escape it my brain wants to make me suffer. When my life is pretty OK , it is messed up in my head. I studied but you know when you can feel your anxiety you just can’t focus and you’re near tears, anger and self distraction so I did a thing that I have learnt from my Swedish mom. I wrote. I asked myself questions on paper, I did a little research and I realised that I need to do something that makes me happy. Something similar like when my boyfriend is fixing his car or when my sister is with her horse. I need to stop think what if, I can’t and It won’t be good. I need to start think that it is my dream and if I try I will at least come somewhere. I decided that from now on I will write a book, everybody need something to do when they not are working and studying. Before i went to the pubs and clubs, I got drunk and then the weekend was over. Well primary I can’t drink because I don’t want my evil headache to come back and ruin my life and second, I don’t want the alcohol to ruin my life. As you know now I like to be alone, yeah I like to spend time with my friends. I like to have a good time with them. On a Sunday afternoon without the one unique person I can be alone with without panicking about being overstimulated, I need to find out what to do. I found out the perfect thing to do, I have always wanted to write a book, I can at least start now, It will take a lot of time. I say to everybody that they need to follow their dreams and now it is my turn to follow my dreams.