We use to eat together sometimes. Me and my family. This time my mom and sister didn’t want to wait for me to eat everything since I happen to be a slow eater. I understand them I should have done the same. During that time I didn’t understand them at all. Suddenly I felt so abounded and lonely and I tried to go through in my mind what went wrong. I had no idea so I ignored the horrible feelings I had.
I was going to sleep, before I go to sleep I use to listen to podcasts or just chat with people on my phone. When I listened to the podcast I started to cry. The podcast wasn’t even sad, the opposite, it was happy. I just felt abounded and lonely again. I knew that I had people around me but I felt so lonely.
Now when I’m writing this I think I feel a bit lonely since I’m going to my apartment in one week. I will be able to talk with my parents but they won’t be there, I will be able to talk with my boyfriend but he won’t be there. It will be a huge change but I need to get used to it right now. I need to realise that nobody will leave me just because they are far away from me.
Thank you for reading and if you feel the same comment!
Yes I look like I am 16 years old, and know nothing about how to cook dinner. I will thank my genes when I’m 40 but right now I will accept that I need to show my ID everywhere.