The separation anxiety strikes back again

We use to eat together sometimes. Me and my family. This time my mom and sister didn’t want to wait for me to eat everything since I happen to be a slow eater. I understand them I should have done the same. During that time I didn’t understand them at all. Suddenly I felt so abounded and lonely and I tried to go through in my mind what went wrong. I had no idea so I ignored the horrible feelings I had.

I was going to sleep, before I go to sleep I use to listen to podcasts or just chat with people on my phone. When I listened to the podcast I started to cry. The podcast wasn’t even sad, the opposite, it was happy. I just felt abounded and lonely again. I knew that I had people around me but I felt so lonely.

Now when I’m writing this I think I feel a bit lonely since I’m going to my apartment in one week. I will be able to talk with my parents but they won’t be there, I will be able to talk with my boyfriend but he won’t be there. It will be a huge change but I need to get used to it right now. I need to realise that nobody will leave me just because they are far away from me.

Thank you for reading and if you feel the same comment!

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Yes I look like I am 16 years old, and know nothing about how to cook dinner. I will thank my genes when I’m 40 but right now I will accept that I need to show my ID everywhere.

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Author: Ebba Katherine

My name is Ebba Katherine, I was born in Colombia 1995, I'm writing about my life as adopted with two families.

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