I don’t want you all to feel sorry for me, I just want to make you aware of this. I haven’t felt so good during this past time.
Anxiety is the worst. You know when you see a cartoon and the animated figure has one angel on one shoulder and one devil on the other shoulder. Well I have a devil on mine, the angel is gone. I can be happy and then something don’t go as planned and all the negative thoughts start to go through my mind. Outsiders I am a positive person and I am that too in my mind when things distracts me from myself. Then I sit there lonely or with someone but the negative thoughts return. Before I used to think that it is better to just say that I’m just tired or stressed but I feel quite unhappy when I should be happy, when everything is perfect and there are space in my mind to be preoccupied. I get worried for the most ridiculous things.