I’m here and I’m feeling better and better for everyday though everything is going slowly. I try to be happy because everyone else are happy, why shouldn’t I? But then I can get a anxiety attacks and I just want to disappear. If you see me happy I’m not faking it but I try to just live in the moment. Thanks to my boyfriend and my family I can find a solution and I can cry in front of them if I want to.
This night was the first night when I slept the whole night and without nightmares. It’s going to be better but it takes time. Friends if you know everything that I’m going through please respect my decisions and help me live in the present.